Today, right now, my blog is born. I already feel resistance to this. My body and breathing are letting me know that. But I’m calming down. I’m just writing now. It feels easier but still uncomfortable. I’m practicing consciousness. I’m here with me. SWN . Hellow. I am so anxious. Today I already set the expectations of myself that I need to create a blog, post in blog at least 24907247902 times this week, and somehow have monetized blog by Sunday. It’s already a very stressful venture. But I’ll continue writing. How are you doing, *insert your name, good reader*? How does life feel for you right now? Are you okay? Are you happy? Are you here? Are you living?
I feel like I’m trying to make some of the most important decisions of my life right now. To stay at my job or quit it? To stay in that city or to move? (I’m definitely moving LOL. But am I? 😫) To start X business or to not start X business? To share in this blog or to not share in this blog?
It’s A LOT.
I’m very anxious. This is one of the most stressful things I’ve ever done l m a o. I’m actually going to publish this writing, for the first time ever. Jk I’ve written in public a total of 1.5 times before, but I know that only one professor of mine ever really read any of my 1.5 publications.
I know someone will read this. HI YOU!!!
I’m anxious because I am terrified of stepping into the unknown. Just like all of us who are reaching for our highest selves are.
Yet at the same time, I’m so sure of my potential.
The electricity went out and I immediately felt like I was about to be under attack. Anxiety is now through the roof. But I’m still writing. There are birds chirping in the background. There is a hum in the distance; it’s growing more silent. A thud. There’s construction going on across my little apartment.
My anxiety, oh my God. But every time I acknowledge it, interestingly, it drastically reduces. Oh the power of a conscious moment.
Anywho, I hope you’re trying–it’s 1:11pm ❤. I hope you’re doing everything you can to live your most fulfilling life. I hope you are trying for you, I hope you remember to believe in yourself.
I hope I’m speaking to your witness.
Hold on, I just had an unexpected visitor. I was really at the door with someone who I WAS NOT AT ALL EXPECTING. Like STRANGER DANGER SH*T. Oh no, my anxietyYyYyYyY. Girl I was shaking and going through it, and of course I unlock my phone to see:
Anyways, the stranger is actually in my home now. Turns out she was supposed to be here and was sent for valid reasons. Thank you stranger. SHARP anxiety drop.
This is where I’m stopping today. Would you believe me if I told you that the time now is 3:33pm?
Before you go, I want you to know that it is my sincerest honor to have you here. I believe that a miracle is unfolding.
I’d love the opportunity to share more with you–come back soon.
Presently,
SWN .